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Friday, 17 November 2006

  • forever trailed by my mistakes
    shades of regret spit in my face
    clawing so incessantly
    they cut so deep before they flee
    shadows of my past forever haunting me

    an ethereal whisper,
    a ghostly caress,
    incorporeal touch
    and intangible sigh

    in secret places i have hidden
    casting words into the darkness
    always searching for an answer
    never knowing what to ask

    now a burning light
    illuminates all that has eluded me
    what i could never find before
    now seems within my grasp


    © diet_coke_of_evil

Friday, 01 September 2006

  • in the mood to write something...

     

    ` Hearts of broken glass. . .

    memories half forgotten of lessons learned
    blessed with rejection and affection spurned
    cursed by apparitions of futureless smiles
    yesterday, i relived all those lies.

    chasing dreams i didn't understand
    to cut myself on razorblade romance
    grief stricken by what i thought i'd lost
    i would've slit our throats for one last touch.

    here's another tale of broken hearts and sleepless nights
    we were two angels screaming love in silent fights
    i thought we'd smile forever, forever is a lie!
    you are beautiful, but like all things, beauty dies.

    shattered mirrors reflect the i love you's that died in our arms
    so many shards of broken promises lay dead in our hearts.
    [still thinking what else to put here]

    making love with knives as we told each other lies
    and those forever eyes lasted till sunrise
    we said our goodbye's, another sigh of lost love
    hearts break inside, so alone we cried.

     

    by me_

Monday, 07 August 2006

  • ` Some of Life’s Contradictions. . .

    when we were born, we were born into a world where our lives can’t and simply will not be satisfied. a seed was already planted in our consciousness. a seed of irony that contradicts what psychological truths we feel. in our lives we grow up learning from ourselves and others that love is something good, something wonderful, but the fallacy in this is that love is something that is also awful. it’s so awful that it is given a different word when it reaches a certain state of awfulness. that stage is called HATE. this is a paradox in itself. it's a natural paradox that is imprinted in our minds. as we develop emotions, we then develop this contradiction of feelings. you cannot have hate without first love. if you admire someone or have a distant affection for someone, whether it be a friend, family member, or lover, you are already in a level of love for that person. once that person you have a certain level of love for does, gets, doesn’t do, or doesn’t get something that you do or don’t want, you inevitably develop hate for that person.

     

    i don’t mean to go any further with the paradox of love and hate and how they drive one another into opposite ends of the pole. what im trying to express is that in our lives, our consciousness developed a world where nothing can be a certain way without the eventuality of having something bad occur, or not necessarily bad but something that is of the complete opposite. ok, to further grasp this philosophy, think of how the word hole and whole sound the same and almost are even spelled the same but with one letter exception. whole pertains to something that is complete or without a void. like in life, if you feel someone completes your soul, you then feel “whole”. now the word hole pertains to the notion that something, an idea or object, exists with a piece missing, or is made up entirely while having a void. for instance, if you had someone in your life and it was great but something undesirable happened, and that person will never be alongside you ever again, you then start to feel empty inside as if there is a "hole" in your soul.

     

    our minds developed such contradictions in our lives naturally. thus, in life it is natural to feel great and then all of a sudden feel terrible. the only problem i have with this is why would mankind develop such complete opposites of one another? was it because the mind of man when it was first developing too insufficient to account for emotions, so his or her body mistaken things and ideas and ended up creating mindsets that were of the opposite?

     

    there is simply something you must understand at a younger age. you will not ever be entirely happy, happy for long or forever. it is imperative the youth of mankind understands this idea. if it is understood much earlier in life, then mankind will be prepared that in life’s treats, there are some treats that become spoiled or will not be a treat for long.

Friday, 04 August 2006

  • ` TULA- la. . .


    © diet_coke_of_evil (AKO TO)

    your smile is fueled by my pain
    yet your misery remains my misery
    you have beaten me down to a level
    where getting up seems undeserving

    i put you high up the pedestal
    where you enjoyed the angle
    from which you stared me down

    you're an ace, i know
    and that puts you on top of my list
    TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT ME NOW
    be the first to see this hurt turn into HATE
    your time is spent, so is my compassion

    you're not afraid of heights
    but i'll make you scream for the grounds
    i build you up to watch you fall
    just like villains are meant to DIE in the end



    © poignant_emptiness (jom buwitre)

    show me the agony burning in your heart
    i'll take half of that broken glass
    just to stop you from bleeding
    i feel the things that make you scream,
    the loss of a crowned relationship,
    the grief of EXHAUSTION,
    and the cards they all threw away.

    they don't want to play,
    they want to win!

    in the last seconds of our trip
    i will hold your hand
    and stay till we hit and crash,
    and END this feeling of guilt
    pounding in our chests!

Wednesday, 02 August 2006

  • PAIN and LOVE. . .

    these two elements co-exist. allow me to use the buy-one-take-one analogy: you can never really obtain LOVE in one hand without bringing along PAIN in your other hand. Love without pain is no love at all, it's just a watered down version of love. but pain doesn't always signify the end of the world. for SOME, it may be the beginning. for SOME, it may be a motivating factor. pain can play several roles in the lives of people. it can have various effects depending on one's own perspective.

    for SOME people, pain is their driving force to keep on loving, especially those who are always in quest for a better love, those whose vocabulary doesn't have 'quit' in it. pain gives us more appreciation for love itself. it tells us how much more we can endure, teaches us what loving is really all about. we become more human by way of getting hurt and for this same reason, we continue to take risks despite our knowledge of the fact that there is no such thing as perfect love. the beauty of love; people get hurt in pursuit of it, and then learn from it the ultimate lesson of life which is not being taught anywhere in schools.

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